This is the story of a child who grows up in a clergyman’s family in the Soviet Estonia of the 1950s and 1960s, where Man is said to be almighty and belief in God is regarded as a relic to be disregarded on the road to a brighter future.
In spite of that, the child of a clergyman is expected to share her parents’ religious beliefs as a matter of course.
Why was I born into such a family in such a country? Why does my family have to move about from one place to another? Why has my father chosen to do work that is of no value in this society? What sort of country is it that regards a family like ours as being strange?
The teenage girl ponders these questions over and over in her diary. After a long period of reflection she leaves the path her parents had set her on and decides to participate very actively in Soviet life. She is motivated by the desire to be like everyone else – to enjoy respect and recognition from society as whole. She achieves all that but in her soul she sways between Heaven and Earth. Her heart is divided – in being like others she is still strongly bound to her parents in her heart.
Standing under the darkening starry sky in the evening, she asks herself how things will go on from here. Or rather back? Back to the legacy of her parents?